2014...

2014...this has to be "our year". At least that is what I am telling myself!  We are hoping that we find our baby this year, and that he/she will find us.  But in the meantime we have so much to be thankful for.  Mady, our families, our home, and health.  We learned a lot in 2013.  Some lessons that I hope we never have to learn again, but they have made us stronger.  We can make it through what ever comes our way.  I hope and pray that those babies that were soooo close to coming into our home are givin the world. I hope that are loved and cherished.  We ask that you still pass our info along to anybody that might help us get to where we want to be, a family of 4 ( or more would be AWESOME).  And that you cherish the little ones in your life, you are very fortunate to have them.  On the plus side, we will look for a baby when we are on vacation, in HAWAII!!!  Bring on 2014 because this has to be the year:)

What's new ...

Sorry we have been missing for a while now. We are still looking for a little person to join our family.  I remember writing the first post for this blog.  We had just finished up some training and I wrote how people had been waiting for years to adopt, and I felt so bad for them and their families.  We are approaching our 2 year mark:( never did I think that it would take this long.  It has been a long two years.  I like to believe that we have grown  and learned a thing or two over the past couple of years.  We have learned to not take ONE single thing or day for granted.  We are very blessed, we have a wonderful daughter, fabulous family and friends, and all the "things" that we need.  But our hearts are still missing something, our arms ache to hold a baby, part of our home is empty.
Over the past couple of months we have came so close to welcoming a baby into our home a couple of times, but for whatever reason it has yet to be our time.  Right now we are healing from a VERY painful failed placement. Our hearts break for anyone who has had this experience.  We had the bags packed.  We had the tickets bought.  We had the baby shower.  We had a name.  We were ready, we had prepared for 3 months, done the paper work told our family and friends. We were ready.  Unfortunately in the end we were left without the baby. We were and still are broken. A part of us died that day.  We loved him. So while we are picking up the pieces and trying to help our daughter understand. We pray everyday for OUR baby to find us. We have to move on, and look forward, even though sometimes it just easier to sit on the couch crying wondering why.  That's not how we were raised, trials and heartache happen and with each passing day we get stronger. Each day we are closer to finding them.  We are looking and we need to help of our family and friends.  Please if you know of any situation, pass along our information.  We love you.

SOOOO....

still nothing is going on for us in the adoption front.  Wow I can say I didn't think it would take THIS long.  They say it can but honestly I didn't believe them.  On the days where I get sad and depressed about it I just look and Mady and I know the reason it's taking so long is because God isn't sending us A baby.  He will send us OUR baby, just as he did with Mady.  That baby will be perfect in every way.  For some reason we have to wait but in the meantime I need to just enjoy every day with Mady.  She is growing up so fast and I really like this stage.  We laugh a lot!  So to keep myself optimistic I have to remind myself that soon, soon our perfect little baby will join our family.  Mady already has the babies ( yes she thinks we are getting 2 boys and 2 girls ) names picked, and there rooms, and she knows what things they will like to eat.  She is also just waiting...

Update...

Well unfortunately we have nothing to update on, except we are now approved with an agency in Utah as well as LDS family services.  So hopefully we find our baby soon:). This new agency still says the wait is about 9-12 months but I guess we will see.  And again if you know of any possible situations please tell them about us!

Things I've Learned...

Things I've Learned

 

I've learned that you can tell a lot about a person by the way he/she handles 3 things: A rainy day, lost luggage, and tangled Christmas trees lights.

 

I've learned that making a "living" is not the same as making a "life."

 

I've learned that life sometimes gives you a second chance.

 

I've learned that you shouldn't go through life with a catcher's mitt on both hands.  You need to be able to throw something back.

 

I've learned that if you pursue happiness, it will elude you.  But, if you focus on you family, your friends, and the needs of others, your work and doing the best you can, happiness will find you.

 

I've learned that whenever I decide something with an open heart, I usually make the right decision.

 

I've learned the everyday, you should reach out and touch someone.  People love that human touch-holding hands, a warm hug, or just a friendly pat on the back.

 

People will forget what you said...people will forget what you did...but people will never forget how you made them feel.

2013...

"Already in my heart, someday in our arms."
I saw this quote on the one and only Pinterest (LOVE that website) and it really hit home.  When you go through something as infertility/adoption you truly love the child that is going to come to your home long before you actually get to hold them in your arms.  The problem is that it sucks waiting to get to meet them.  We pray and pray every night that a little miracle will join our family.  And that we will be ready when the opportunity come up. 
I have never really been one that reads Horoscopes but for some reason I read my 2013 overview and I am extremely hopeful! It says its the year of fabulous expansion of sweetness and love galore.  So listen up 2013,  DO NOT LET ME DOWN!!!  Please be our year...please give Mady a sibling,  she needs one in a really bad way. Please give us a baby to hold and raise and take care of.  So I guess if I have to say my actual New Years resolution's they would be:

• Lose the 10 lbs I have been wanting to for the last 5 years ( problem is, I don't do anything to help this.  So they will be there next year I am sure of it.)
• Be more positive
• Don't feel sorry for us.  Yes Infertility is hell but, it lead us to Mady and I wouldn't change it for the world and it will lead us to our next child.  It is a nasty blessing.  Nevertheless, a blessing.  And our situation could be so much worse.
• Enjoy the little things more. 

I was going to upload a couple of Holiday photos but surprise, it won't let me right now.  So this will be a picture-less post. We hope you all had a wonderful Holiday season, we did.  We were very blessed to get to spend it with our families and loved ones.  Christmas has always been special to me but when your kids are old enough for it it really kind of rocks!!

MERRY CHRISTMAS!!  We love this time of year.  We are very blessed and extremely fortunate.  We would just like to wish you all a Happy Holiday Season and a very Merry Christmas.  May you be blessed!