Yep...

we are still here and still just waiting. WAITING for someone to feel a connection with us.  To be blessed with a tiny little newborn that will be loved more than imagined.  To have a relationship with a wonderful birth family, one that only a small hand full of people on this earth have GET to have.  To LOVE a complete stranger for the AMAZING opportunity they give to us.  To be super tired because I was up feeding and cuddling.  To have little onesies that have spit up on them. To not buy baby clothes and in the back of my mind wonder if it was a waste of money.  BUT... in the MEAN TIME  I will continue to explain to Mady that we are waiting for Jesus to send us a baby before we buy diapers, and bottles, and binkies.  I will hold babies of family and friends and cuddle them as much as possible and tell myslef soon, soon it will be our turn. I will kiss and hug and tickle Mady. Laugh at her dancing. Count down the days until she can be the greatest big sister EVER.  And be SO very GRATEFUL for her and the BLESSING that she is in our lives. Think about her wonnderful birth mom that gave us something that we couldn't give ourselves.  In the mean time we will just be happy with the lives we live and the blessings we have, we are fortunate.  We will just keep waiting...